Friday, September 25, 2009

With a Sad and Heavy Heart...

As many of you know...My precious mother has been gravely ill. It is with a very heavy heart that I must inform you that My Dear Mother has passed away. She entered into the loving hands of our heavenly Father on September 18th... one hour after I saw her and introduced her to her new grandson Jacob.

She was truly an amazing woman who will be missed and lived a life like no other always keeping family,friends and the needs of others in her heart and mind. She was a servant of the Lord and I feel some sort of peace knowing that she is home and no longer in pain.

I, however, have lost my true north...my guide...my cheerleader, my confidant, my shining example and the best mother and friend anyone could have ever wanted.She always told me the right thing to do... and I did it... if not for me but to make her proud. Her family was first... always... and she was the most kind, caring and compassionate person ever. If you knew her... you were truly made better just by being her friend.

I ache for her and I can only hope that one day... this ache will be less as I know it will never go away.It causes my physical pain to know that I will never hug or kiss this dear woman again. She is gone and there is no more.She has taken a piece of my heart and my mourning is intense and overwhelming.

Thank you to all of my true friends that have been there for me and for all of the kind words and prayers.

I leave you all with this reading that has brought me some comfort knowing that others are rejoicing and she will be met with love...

I am standing upon the seashore. A ship, at my side,spreads her white sails to the moving breeze and startsfor the blue ocean.
She is an object of beauty and strength.
I stand and watch her until, at length, she hangs like a speckof white cloud just where the sea and sky come to mingle with each other.
Then, someone at my side says, "There, she is gone"
Gone where?Gone from my sight. That is all. She is just as large in mast,hull and spar as she was when she left my side.
And, she is just as able to bear her load of living freight to her destined port.
Her diminished size is in me -- not in her.
And, just at the moment when someone says, "There, she is gone,"there are other eyes watching her coming, and other voicesready to take up the glad shout, "Here she comes!"And that is dying...

20 comments:

Heather said...

Dawn, I am so sorry to hear about your loss. My heart is broken for you. I am so glad you were able to introduce her to Jacob. You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers.

Sue @ McMahon Five Designs said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. May peace be with you and your family during this time.

Jennifer E. said...

So sorry to hear this Dawn. May you find peace in all of the wonderful memories you have of her. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

CathyRose said...

Oh dear girl, I am so sorry for your loss. It sounds like you had a wonderful relationship and have lots of good memories to sustain you. Sending hugs and prayers.

Lisa Kind said...

I am so sorry to hear of your loss, Dawn. How truly fortunate you were to have a mom that was that special. Keep your special memories close...that will carry you through your pain. My sincere sympathies to you and your family.

Cassie_lu said...

sorry for your loss

Christi said...

Dawn, I am so sorry for your loss. My mother is my best friend and I cannot imagine her not being apart of my life. You and your family will definitely be in my prayers.

scrappinmominky said...

Dawn, I am so sorry for you loss. My prayers are with you and your family.

gale said...

I'm so sorry, Dawn. I will keep you and your family in my prayers.

The Mama Monkey said...

I am so very sorry to hear of your loss, Dawn. I pray for you and your family during this difficult time.

Cathy Indelicato said...

So sorry to hear about your Mom, Dawn. Our thoughts are with you.

Deb said...

Dawn I am so sorry for your loss hun! I lost my mother 18 years ago and a day doesn't go by that I don't hink of her or see something that reminds me of her. I wish she could have met her first great grandchild but I know one day in heaven they will. I love the saying at the end of your post as it shows that heaven is excited about receiving another one home and I am sure she is dancing in the street with Jesus and her other loved ones that have gone before her. My prayers and thoughts are with you during this time of loss. {{{HUGS}}}

Louise Forsyth said...

Dawn I am sorry for the loss of your Mother and the sadness you are feeling at this time. I am thinking of you and your family.

Jenn Embry said...

I am so sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you. (((hugs)))

Naomi said...

Dawn, I am so sorry I haven't been checking more regularly this past few weeks. I wish I had known this sooner. I am so sorry for your loss. Just reading this, I have tears running down my cheeks, for your pain, and for the thought of my mom, who I hope to have many more years. God will ease your pain, you know she's happy where she is. We lost my MIL two Thanksgivings ago, it was her birthday a few days ago, and it still hurt tremendously. She too was ill, and we are glad she is no longer suffering, but you still miss her hug, her laugh, her presence. I am praying for you!

jennifer said...

Dawn, I am so very sorry to hear of your loss. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Al said...

Dawn,

I hope happy memories of your Mom soon replace the pain of her passing. I am so sorry! You are in my prayers.

Althea
(Najahlei on SCS)

Spot On Your Pants said...

Ooooo...I'm so sorry! I found you through Monster Pie and what a sad first read. I lost my dad in June and he only met my baby boy twice. How sad!

Traci said...

Dawn, I am so sorry to hear of your loss. My prayers are with you and your family. I am so glad she got to meet your new baby and see you before she passed.

Etha said...

big HUGS to you Dawn!!